tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7586054179302638863.post9193194000175258107..comments2023-07-01T10:30:00.782-05:00Comments on Ha'azina Tefilati: You don't need OCD to need a fixed place in shulRivkahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00539605518386641789noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7586054179302638863.post-60015037458957901012008-01-03T10:04:00.000-05:002008-01-03T10:04:00.000-05:00I can very much relate to this post. I've felt th...I can very much relate to this post. I've felt that sinking feeling of undeserving, wanting to sink into the floor or melt into the wall because you just <I>know</I> that everyone else knows how undeserving you are...but at the same time, craving inclusion, wanting to be good enough to be one of them. Oh, I know it oh so well. And it is a painful place to be. I hope you can find your place--in terms of having a makom kavua, and in terms of how you fit into the fabric of the shul community, and in how you relate to the world emotionally.Scrapshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15911315552965685448noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7586054179302638863.post-9501796386633892662008-01-03T01:02:00.000-05:002008-01-03T01:02:00.000-05:00Thank you for the kind words :) I did get a lovely...Thank you for the kind words :) I did get a lovely few hours of sleep.<BR/><BR/>I totally understand what you mean about the regular seating. It's not so much that you're attached to a particular spot but that without one you worry that people won't save one for you and the rejection that is associated with it.<BR/><BR/>BTW, this post is among your most highly rated post at 72 points, and two of your posts Wed. were the most popular :)<BR/><BR/>I love the name of your blog. Are you familiar with Naomi Shemer's song Vehu Yoshi'ani? It is based on Tehillim 55.<BR/><BR/>You might want to check You Tube to listen to it there.Keli Atahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05089132216830000713noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7586054179302638863.post-87308098819162148312008-01-02T21:13:00.000-05:002008-01-02T21:13:00.000-05:00Keli: Thank you, your comments are really touching...Keli: Thank you, your comments are really touching. And I learned some things. I had no idea what you meant by the J Blog list or what the star ranking meant or anything, so I went to track it down and when I found it I was pleasantly surprised. I know I submitted my blog to a bunch of aggregators when I started but I didn't know about the voting thing.<BR/><BR/>I like your term "wounded healers." That actually very much describes my friend D. I hadn't thought about applying it to me, but I kind of like it. :)<BR/><BR/>To answer your question, what I fear most about not having a regular seat is that I will wind up without any seat at all and that no one will make room for me because everyone else "knows" that I don't deserve to be there either.<BR/><BR/>It's like not having a seat means that I don't count.<BR/><BR/>Thank you so much for visiting and sharing. And I hope you get some good sleep tonight!Rivkahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00539605518386641789noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7586054179302638863.post-952182894954606672008-01-02T16:57:00.000-05:002008-01-02T16:57:00.000-05:00Hi :) I found your blog on the J Blog list during ...Hi :) I found your blog on the J Blog list during a bout of insomnia last night. A couple of things--your blog ranks four out of five stars even though you have slightly over 200 posts.<BR/><BR/>That's an impressive rating and obviously what you are writing is connecting with a lot of people, whether they take the time to comment or not. <BR/><BR/>Secondly--HAPPY BLOGOVERSARY on the one year anniversary of your blog.<BR/><BR/>Thirdly--from the posts I've thus far, my impression is that you are a sensitive and gentle soul. The kind of person whose troubles make them "wounded healers," uniquely sensitive to the needs of others.<BR/><BR/>I see that in your wanting to make yourselve smaller so that others in the shul will not feel like outsiders.<BR/><BR/>But you have as much right to be there as a regular so to speak as anyone else :)<BR/><BR/>I often feel like an outsider myself and if I attended the same shul as you, well, I would appreciate knowing that I could find a kind-hearted person each week in a specific regular location without having to search for a seat.<BR/><BR/>Wanting a regular seat isn't at all selfish. Not in the least. Are you afraid that if you don't have a regular seat you'll have no place during the service or maybe face the embarassment of looking for a seat when everyone else has already taken their seats?<BR/><BR/>Anyways...great blog and I just wanted to throw my two cents in. BTW, it sounds like your rabbi has a heart of gold.Keli Atahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05089132216830000713noreply@blogger.com