I see we're about out of time

I see my counselor tomorrow. I've printed out most of my posts, especially from It's here and more recent, for her to read.

I don't want to go. I want to stay at home and not go anywhere. But she needs to know what's going on.

The hardest part is I have to find a way to drive there competently, pay for my session, wait in a room of strangers (it's a clinic), make all the niceties on the way to her office, then drop my defenses, bare my soul, and pick it all back up within 50 minutes so I can drive competently home.

Right. And I wonder why it's so hard to feel in these sessions instead of just thinking.

P.S. I know there are some comments I haven't yet responded to. I will. I'm just trying to get through right now. Thanks for bearing with me.

P.P.S. Responses to comments are now up. A few have gone instead into a FAQ I posted here.